Hey Fara this maybe the last RJ I would send you. You should be soundly asleep right now and I really wish I could be there stroking your hair, giving you random kiss while you sleep, adjusting your blanket making sure all part of your body is covered but I guess I can’t do that anymore and I really have no one to blame but myself for that.
A week of not having any contact with you really is a torture. I’m dying to know your whereabouts, your well-being, whether you have eaten or if you’re getting bullied by the other crew. I just want to know everything like how you would rant to me after every flight. I can hardly sleep when you’re in Rome. It hurts so much cause you are the thoughts before I sleep and the thoughts when I wake up. Being unable to talk to you is just so frustrating! Every day I miss you more and more and it sucks so much that I can’t do anything except to stalk you on twitter and Facebook. Stalking your Twitter all the way since the first day we talk. Haha we sure do have a lot of indirect tweets. Haha. It seems only like yesterday that we snap all those pictures that you tweet. Time do travel fast ya.
My hope and faith to savour this relationship increase when we agree to meet each other just now. Finally I can see your pretty face, your beautiful long hair and that kissable rosy cheeks of yours. From the very moment I saw you, my mind started working, thinking of a way for me to get you back in my arms. My heart started to fret every seconds the clock ticks cause I know I’m running out of time to do something which can make you melt but you never give me a chance to do so. My heart crushed cause I know there’s nothing that can change your mind. I began to wary. My hands and feet start to fidget. Sticks after stick of cigarette are being light up hoping to ease the pain and giving inspiration to capture you attention. When I send you home I thought about saying those magic words and beg for you to give me a chance but I can already feel the rejection even before I do it. I was helpless. Hope and faith fade right away.
I want to thank you for showing me what love is. Before this, I didn’t know how it feels like to love someone so much. Fara you meant everything to me. You show how it’s like to be in love. Love is indeed the most beautiful thing I ever feel and thanks to you I got a chance to feel it. I never know what love is and when all my friends talk about love, I was the only one who wouldn’t even give a thought thinking it is all bullshit but everything changes when I met you Fara. You shower me with love, care and everything a girlfriend should have and I feel very bless to have you. I may not say it or even admit it but I am very lucky to have you as my companion. Every little thing you do make me fall in love with you.
I’m gonna miss your long tight hugs which are the best ever in the world. I’m gonna miss pampering you like a baby. Im gonna miss that sweet smile of yours which will always cheer me up when I’m sad and calming me down when I’m angry. Im gonna miss everything about you even your rant, your annoyance when Im driving and your annoying fake accent. EVERYTHING!
I’m sorry for doing things that I should not have done. I love you so much Fara. I really do. Be safe anywhere you are. Goodbye my lover.